Yep, you read correctly, third time's a charm for me on this breast cancer roller coaster.
On the 13th, I went for my preventative MRI of the breasts. That evening I got a call from my surgeon that there were two suspicious areas showing up in the left breast. She arranged for a mammogram with ultrasound on the 15th. They were not able to see the same areas in the mammogram nor with the ultrasound. Due to my history (and certainly the knowledge of the doctors) they arranged for, although I think demanded is a better word, an MRI guided biopsy on Monday (I could write an entire post about how much I dislike this procedure). Tuesday, my surgeon called with the preliminary results--both areas are cancerous.
I apologize for all those reading who are knowledgable on BC and have questions that I should know the answer to but simply don't right now. This diagnosis took me completely off guard. I was expecting an all clear. I was ready to put my teacher wardrobe to work, my PTA mom positive attitude in high gear, and my hockey mom schedule in motion.
Today, I had strength. I went to my classroom. I said the right things to the right people, and meant it. I sincerely promised to take care of myself and to ask for anything that I might need.
Tonight, I am weak. I am hiding in my house, grateful to be allowed to just be mad and sad alone.
Tomorrow, I will stand tall. We will formulate a plan and with the help of so many people I love and cherish I will take on this challenge with determination and whatever else it takes to rid myself of this round of evil.
